I was 11 when a lean and lanky guy caught my eye on a TV soap opera my mother used to watch. I found him heartbreakingly adorable. 4 years later I find the same adorable guy in a movie adaptation of one my favourite books back then: The 3 mistakes of My Life. The way you saved Ali there, was more heroic and realistic than any other scene I had ever watched. The same year came the commitment-phobic Raghu: The charming guy next door who stole not just Tara’s but my heart as well in Shuddh Desi Romance . By then, the 15 year old me had started having a full fledged crush on you and whenever I used to spot my crush in the school corridoors, “Gulabi” used to play at the back of my head. Then came Sarfaraz Yousuf in P.K., a small role; but I fell in love with you all over again. You proved that love knew no boundaries not to forget mentioning, the search for my Sarfaraz is still on! By then , I had started preparing for my engineering entrances. That’s when I came to know you were AIEEE AIR-7! That day , you no more remained a star crush for me, you became an inspiration. A teen who was unable to pursue her passion for journalism had a newfound hope that not all is lost; that you can start pursuing your passion after you fulfil your parents’ expectations . I started working hard to clear my engineering entrances. Finally came MS Dhoni-The Untold Story in 2016, a role which you owned, where you inspired. Raabta once again made me fall in love with you where you crossed the oceans to save your love. Kedarnath made me crave for a Mansoor and my tears were uncontrollable when you gave up your life and most importantly, a life with Mukku to save a family. Chhichhore was probably the movie closest to my heart as it reminded me of my dad consoling me when I could not get a good rank in IIT and it also made me realize that how important college and hostel mates are-they are irreplaceable . I was elated when I came to know Augustus Waters was being brought to life on screen by you. You were not just an awe-inspiringly prodigious actor but were also an erudite and enlightened individual. The thought that you will never return on screen to entertain us devastates me. The thought that your words on social media will no longer illuminate us, fills my heart with great anguish. This loss is irreparable and while you start your journey of eternal sleep, I pray that this journey of yours is full of peace and serenity. Rest in Peace Sushant Singh Rajput. We will miss you.